My sister had her baby tonight (9-2) at 10:24. She is beautiful, healthy, and I love her to death. Roz was 6 lbs 3oz, 18 inches long, with incredibly long toes! I was in the OR for the c-section and it was just an amazing experience to share with my sis. 

I have an addiction to candles. The smell, the flicker of the flame, the soft light they throw, makes me very happy and relaxed. I could live with just candle light.

::SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE::

My Yankee Candle shipment just arrived! 8 new big jar candles. They were having a bogo clearance sale and I just couldn't help myself. My husband is going to kill me when he finds out, but oh well, I'll be in candle heaven for months. I bought 2 Island Spa, 2 Fruit Smoothie, a Mum, a Lotus Blossom, a Stargazer Lily, and a Pineapple Gardenia.

OMG they smell so good! I can't believe it's going to be 90+ degrees today so I have to wait to light any. In fact, I miss my candles this week since it has been so dang hot I haven't lit them for days. Maybe I'll light the Lotus Blossom just to let the smell permeate the apartment. Yep, off to do that now!

**WAHHHHH**

Uru's server's are down and The Soprano's finale is still 45 minutes away. I must be strong and stay away from the internet looking for what is going on. I've been spoiler free this long I can make it just a little while longer, right?

All over. Want more. please.

We stayed at home and played tourist here. It's funny the number of places Pat has never been although he has lived here his whole life.

We went to http://www.aquariumrestaurants.com/downtownaquariumdenver/flash_content/index.html. Spent an entire day in used bookstores across the city. (And managed to only buy 10 books! In 6 hours.) Next day DH went in for cortisone shot for his incredibly painful shoulder, that was a lazy day, watched Netflix and cuddled. We spent a day with his mom and took her to dinner at Red Lobster. Nick had fun that day also since he got to see MIL's pug Libby. I love when they play all day cuz Nick comes home and litterally falls over on his pillow and stays there until bed. It's pretty cute.

We also drove Trail Ridge Road and saw deer, elk, prairie dogs, mice, caribou, and some foxes. Oh! And at the top it was snowing! The store/rest stop at the top overlooks a valley and we just stared at the snow falling. I love watching snow fall, it may be the most relaxing thing I know of, so I was in heaven to find this in June. My DH was that way with the critters.

Last place we went was http://www.butterflies.org/ Thousands of butterflies of thousands of colors flying free in their indoor rain forest. Beautiful! I had so many land on me it was incredible.

So, vacation good. Want more.

So, a few years ago I was asked to participate in a Beta for a new Online Multiplayer Game based off Myst. ( That was in 2002 )

( Jump ahead to last night.... ) Only thing is I really want a cig when I play and I quit for good last Dec!

Do antibiotics make dogs act differently? Nicky has been acting strange the last few days (been on amoxicillian since 5-24) by being aggressive and really not wanting his pill. Until Mon night I have never had a problem giving him a pill, he would even hop up on a chair for me. Now I have to chase him and it takes a few times to get it down. Granted, these are horse pills even for me. Hopefully all gets back to normal Friday when we are all done.

Today went okay after the panic attack subsided. I had already taken a Klonopin before going in since my anxiety level was high and climbing higher. So DH let me cry it out for a few minutes, then helped with the breathing and relaxation. I felt like such a loon, so embarrassed to be acting that way, but just like every time else it only mattered to me.

Sometimes I just don't get brains! I have worked in the same location, with the same people for years, and one of those people is my DH, so why did I have to have a panic attack? I've been so good at keeping the anxiety at bay with breathing and self talk that I've only needed Klonopin twice in the last month.

Tomorrow is another chance.

The work aspect was pretty boring, just prep work.

I barely knew ya, hope you behaved yourself.

How or Why I slept for 28(!?!?!) hours, I have no clue. I sure do feel awake and alert today, though.

Where is that day repayment office again?

Ugh, ugh, ugh.




I won't spend much time pondering this show over the summer.

Well, I've finally done it. Taken that step to become a poster rather than the lurker I've been the last 7 or 8 years.

BtVS was my gateway into compulsive lurkerdom. I started by finding The Bronze: Beta and it became appointment reading after each episode. I posted a few times, but between being very shy and very anxious it did not happen often. Of course, there was also the fact that many people could say what I was thinking way more comprehensively and eloquently than I ever could.

I next found Buffistas and the intelligent conversation and fun of the watch and post made this my new place to go after the episodes. Soon I was reading all the threads. I really wanted to join in the conversation and registered (shyone2051) although I never posted because I was scared that my writing abilities would not be good enough.So I continued to read along, each day being a new chapter in an endless book for me. Somewhere along the line I found I cared what happened to these people. I smiled, laughed, I cried, I cheered, I prayed, I found people with similar interests.

Then I felt ashamed because I finally realized you are real people and I've been secretly watching from afar and never speaking up or even letting myself be known. I am sorry for this. I've tried to find a way to post the last few months, but I've always managed to hit something other than the post button. I started a new med recently that has really helped me and now is the time to join in the fun.

My name is Becky, I'm pleased to meet you. Anything you would like to know about me please ask, I'll answer anything.

I have friended people I enjoy reading. If you would like me to remove you, just ask, no problems. And feel free to friend me if you like.